I was thinking today about diaries of famous people…………were they really their personal diary? Who would permit a personal diary to be published?
I read the personal diary of Lev Tolystoi. I was very impressed! After I read his personal challenges while he was serving in Crimea and the missing entries, then he would enter again and recount how he went gambling and drinking which resulted in using prostitutes, contracting venereal disease, the long recovery and his resolution to never do that again.
Later in his diary he admits to being disappointed with what he was doing as an Officer in the Russian Army and the fallacy of war. The result…….he did it all over again!
I have been down on the dumps over the last few weeks. The description is more of being listless. I just cannot find the personal courage to rise above being almost depressed and useless. I just cannot get to doing anything worthwhile except eating, resting and meditating on journeys that go nowhere.
It is like a Spring Fever, whatever that it is………. but it is still Winter?
This is a time in my life when I should be pleased with all:
- No, I am not wealthy. I had chances to be financially wealthy but I chose not to advance on that path. Yes, it was a personal choice.
- Marilyn and I are conditionally healthy so no real complaints there
- My children are in satisfying careers and comfortable
- They live within a 30 minutes of our house. Nice!
- All my ten (10) grandchildren have either educated themselves into successful careers or are attending institutions and obtaining impressive grades on their paths to success
- I completed my first book, Veregin Story 2017, and as first such attempt at writing books, it is passable and most significant: it was written and published in one year. It is now a fund-raiser for the National Doukhobor Heritage Village with sales commissions to the New Horizons in Veregin and the Doukhobor Discovery Center in Castlegar
- I relinquished my resistance to Marilyn’s coaxing and I have written “My Journey Through a Life of Opportunity” which perhaps covers about 50% of my life and its challenges. It is there for my family who are surprised at who I was and what I was thinking about at that time.
- I finally rummaged through my personal “suitcase” (the one I left home with) where I stored all my personal correspondence. I was able to sift through all and saved Marilyn’s letters and those of my mother as well as those from my Sister Mary and Brother-in-law John where they encouraged me to continue with university and would send small financial contributions to keep me from starving. This is now assembled into a binder and again, it is for my family.
- I admit that my work ethic has conditioned me for a full day with little idle moments and so that may be a likely reason for my current feelings so I purchased Cadpro which is an excellent computer drafting program. I am learning how to use it by doing drawings for renovations of Nona and Tamara’s house as well as providing constructive suggestions for daughter Lori and Rick’s new house construction next year. The ultimate objective is to offer drafting to the public for small projects. Maybe that will absorb some of my frustration? It certainly will be an avenue to vent my 55 years in construction.
- Whatshan Lake Retreat still has its stressful moments but I am comfortable that I have prepared the younger generation to take over. We are waiting for a Bulk Water Permit from Water Rights that can complete our zoning amendment from the Regional District. This achievement will render the Society independent of a constant need for donations and any government grants that occasionally come our way. It should allow funding for many needs in social and health enterprises. That was the original objective of the Founders. Whatshan Lake Retreat is a very successful project that will grow with the needs of the community.
- Marilyn and I are just now out of debt for the first time in our lives. We have made a joint commitment to divest ourselves of what we are doing and not get involved in any new projects. No matter how well those projects were planned, we always seem to end up “holding the bag” so to speak. The last episode of seniors housing “Grandview” caused us to lose $200,000. What is ironic is that I had promised myself not to get involved again in any development after we left the Coast in 1993. A family decision with friends drew us in. The project is a great success as a 60 acre subdivision that boasts:
- 47 seniors friendly bungalows and duplexes (all occupied)
- 56 developed private residential lots (80 % constructed)
- A Phase 11 – 43 lot residential lot subdivision (now under construction)
- 13 acres has been set aside for a zoned 204 unit Seniors complex (shovel ready for construction (this is what forced the seniors cooperative to cease development)
- All the critics predicted that there was not enough demand but here it is, well used.
So what then is my problem?
I am working on it………………….!
Posted 1500 hours, Sunday, March 04, 2018.
DC Services said:
Plant a garden and watch the fruit of your efforts grow. Be grateful, be thankful, love and be loved, praise God, go to a sobrania. You are Blessed. Go pagan and have your cards read with a 21 card deck like the old folks used to.
Sent from POLLY
everigin said:
Polly
Good message
Elmer
everigin said:
Love you Dad! Enjoy the simplicity of your life even if its uncomfortable. Some people wish for this every day!
everigin said:
Not hearing from you, I checked your blog and now I know why. Here is the cure! You got to realize that you are truly and old f—-er! Sit still and listen to the grass grow, while you watch it grow. Do not odder services or advice unless you are asked. You listed a fantastic list of life achievements that most men can only dream of. Print those off, in large font, frame them and read them out loud 10X a day. If this does not work, I can provide further in depth counseling, however my schedule has limited spaces available, but, I can accommodate an old friend.
Best regards
Paul
tonypryslak said:
A soul’s journey on this Planet demands certain attributes for those of us that hail from Saskatchewan. Mother Earth’s template for the humans from Sask.requires that they have been molded by a sense of freedom, passion and resilience to enable them to survive poverty, weather, bankers, etc.
I view us two as spirit-brothers; slavic ancestry,parallel rads in education. When we graduated UofS, the calculator was evolving into the computer for you; For self, I had taken course in “geology” as a science elective towards a degree in education. The rest is history.
I cherished this journey of mine with the rocks, earth and its scientific systems. would not change any of it, except in hindsite I may have planted a few rosebushes along the way; not certain if I would have returned to small their fragrance.
You my friend, went on to document your experiences through diaries and they are the base for this Blog.I too had work related diaries, but rather than harvesting these, I turfed them into a dumpster. Let me explain: in a parallel life I had 3000 pages of dream journals. When I was in my late teens, I kept getting a recurring dream for the next 15 years. Eventually, other dreams started to filter in and I started to record these in 1988. Oh the books that I read, as far away from hard science as possible.
My journey into the inner realms culminated in the 4-second time-gap, known as the out-of-body experience during my heart surgery in 1997. These journals are still used, along with books by Jung, etc.
I do not have my family around and I’m not too sure if they even believe in dreams. I do not have a friends only club like your A&W club. I do have a space in the basement that I consider sacred with my books and CD’s. One such inspiring CD is by the Kootney Mens Choir that you gifted me several years ago.Your brother sings a solo about “the combine” I picture myself on that Combine o some field in Saskatchewan, filling some bin with beauty, gratitude and abundance, knowing that we are all one in the brotherhood-sisterhood of this planet
Tony
everigin said:
Tony, What a beautiful story you have written. You are a gift to society and mankind. I hope one day we can read your adventures and dreams.
Nona
tonypryslak said:
Nona: Thank you for these kind comments. I love your Dad as a brother and I do feel that we had past life-times experiences. I had put my writings aside, thinking that they would serve or be of interest to no one; with your encouragement, I will get back to them. Our journeys are so unique, leaving so much room for learning.
Tony
everigin said:
Tony:
Strike out on that trail and get those writings down. They are precious and I would love reading them.
Elmer
everigin said:
Tony
I have been “drifting” these past few weeks and I just got back to my blog. I did not realize how many Readers may have been here while I was gone.
Your story touched my heart and brought many memories when we used to have trap lines to harvest the muskrat and weasel pelts. We actually though we could beat the Hudson Bay in the way they managed to give us barely nothing for our efforts. We realized then all the abuse that the native Indians took under the disguise “Fur Trading”.
Thank you for your story and I can still visualize the trap lines and the mink tracks that teased me but I could never catch on. That is why the mink fur was expensive.
Till next time buddy!
Elmer